Lovin' Christmas

This christmas is going to be amazing....
Already, I have met up with someone I haven't seen since June, and sparks started that I have wanted since grade 7. He is awesome, very funny, sweet, and talented..
In one week i have changed so much, Im just so happy and all because of him.
Like i said, this christmas is going to be amazing, because i am going to get to spend time with him.
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Bridge to Terabithia

So today i watched Bridge to Terabithia with my sister... and you know what i realized... our lives aren't long enough to conform to what everyone else wants you to be like. In the movie there is a girl named Leslie, and she is so unique.. she wears whatever she wants, and her imagination is absolutely endless... she can think of anything and make it seem real to her. She is different, and guess what ?? she is so happy and enjoys her life. With the fact that she's unique comes fun and even though shes different, that's what makes her life exciting. She can walk into an old forest and all of the sudden it appears as a magical kingdom, that she has made up every part of it. She lived the best times of her life there, and its because she had a friend, and her imagination to keep her happy. She doesn't need t.v or any video games to keep her occupied, she has her thoughts and now she has her magical kingdom to share with her best friend Jessie.
I think its stupid how we conform to wear the same things as other people and how we are to scared to be unique because we think people will ridicule us because of it. But if we do become our own person , our life will get better and we will find ourselves so much happier. So personally i'm going to try and make my life a little more unique and be who i wanna be and do what i wanna do. All in the effort to make my life better, its amazing what you can do if you keep your mind wide open.

Night

This is an old poem i wrote last semester during english class, i really liked it and thought i'd share:

Darkness crawling,

Like a nightmare,

So cold and disturbing.

Shadows hiding around every corner.

Serenity, bringing both feelings of good and bad,

In the minds of those sleeping and awake.

As Stars come out, lighting up the dark face of night,

Hope too emerges into previously spooky dreams.

The moon, like a nightlight, comforting all fears,

And all dangers slips from dreadful thoughts.

Mystical fog rolls away,

Unveiling the beauty of tranquility.

Able now to sleep, the eyes of day shut,

And while they dream, a new tomorrow comes.

Where is the real war zone?

As alot of people were informed of this morning... Virginia Tech & University experienced a massacre. One shooter shot one person in a section of dorms on the thousand+ acre campus. Two hours later, a different shooter! entered another building, 20 walking minutes away... still on the campus... and fired 30+ shots at students and faculty. The death toll is at 33 and is still climbing as victims in critical condition pass away in hospital. In total.. this massacre had to use 13 ambulances to transport of the injured and deceased to various hospitals.
The second shooter himself is deceased and the first has not yet been found. They caused even so much fear, two students jumped out of the building's top windows, breaking bones and are now in critical condition.
One of the students recorded some of this massacre on his cell phone video and audio.... in this short video.. we could clearly hear 27 shots fired and the police just standing around the building!! Not taking action while innocent people trying to get an education are shot and killed. Its amazing how one man could cause so much trauma and fear in one giant school campus.
Another survivor of this massacre recieved a telephone call from his friend, who is fighting in Iraq, asking him if he is okay. This is how crazy and messed up our world is... a man calling from a real war zone in iraq to ask his friend if hes okay on a safe university campus.. made into a war zone!

-Will this happen again?

-How many more people will have to die innocently until the governemnt figures out a way to protect from people like this.. who take lives for no good reason??

-Why is there not better action taken when a situation comes up like this??

Our world has come to such evil that a war zone can be created anywhere.. simply with two weapons and two obviously unstable people.
All we can do now is pray that the death toll stays as its at now.. and for comfort of the victims families and friends.
If you want ot offer your public support you can join one of the many "Pray for VT" groups on facebook, as i have already done.

Heartbroken, She Wrote

u mislead me
u destroyed me
u broke me down to nothing,
and yet from all of this

u have helped me find myself,
the real me, the unique me, the me who does not conform
and who has become entirely,
the me that i love

Mislead

The one time you put your heart out there... it gets ripped out of you and told its only seen as a friend. You think you are someone special.. but you're not, its just a misunderstanding, not explained by the other till you're ready to take it to the next level.

"I just want to be friends"

you see those words come up on the screen, and at that moment your heart falls to the ground and your eyes immately well up, and tears pour out of your eyes. Thoughts come to your head, am i good enough?? am i pretty enough?? did you ever really like me?? but.... i want to be more...
all other thoughts seem to slip from your head, only thoughts of the good times you thought were special to both, not just to yourself.
But in truth it was nothing to him and to you.. it was amazing and the idea of it being too good to be true didnt even come near your thoughts.
How could i be so misunderstood?
How could i get such a different impression from what you were thinking?

Even though it ended up this way.. to tell you the complete truth.. I WOULDN'T CHANGE ONE
SECOND OF IT....

those few weeks with you were hte best weeks i have had ever.. and the joy you brought me was undescribable.. everytime i thought of you.... a big smile was brought to my face.. an uncontrollable one.. one that brought with it excitment of when i d get to see you next...

but thats all over now.. and i wish it wasn't.. but those memories i have.. unlike our bond... will last forever...

ill miss you.. and wish i coudl re-live those weeks over and over again...