New Year. New Start

So i know im still living the same life i was at 11:59pm on December 31, now. But for some reason, I feel like really.. this new year of 2009 has brought me a new beginning. Last year was kind of a crummy one for me, and if you asked any of my friends, there wasnt too many moments when i truly felt like a "lucky" girl.. literally. I went through so many times of simply asking myself.. why. Why me? Why doesnt this happen to others? Did i do something to deserve this? When will it stop?
Well i think that i can answer the last question in there. It HAS stopped... Though it may be subconscious, at 12 o clock on january 1st of 2009, my life changed.
It may simply be that I am taking more time to look at what i HAVE instead of what i dont have. Taking more time to appreciate the people and things in my life that others don't have and that they may never have.
Like my friends, they are amazing, and the most appreciative and complimentary people I know. I walked into school this morning, with a bed head look.. made from last nights curls.. but my friends just beamed! They couldnt stop telling me how nice i looked and that my hair looked great, asking me how I did it... I was taken back, and instead of thinking.. well. i must just be having a good hair day.. i thought, wow.. my friends are great!
Even people in my life who i didnt think were like my close friends, but just through this new year beginning I am bonding with them and truly appreciating them for who they are.
My best friend.. he and I just click, you know? But a few months after we became such good friends, he started dating this girl, and well she wasnt too fond of our tight friendship. She seemed to think that i was trying to steal him and that he would ditch her for me. In my heart, i know that even thoguh he is great and sure, i used to like him liek that, i would never do that to her or him. But through this new year, all of the sudden, me and her.. a surprise to everyoine.. are bonding and are like being friends! Its so weird but i love it.. because its the one thing that puts a smile on my best friends face. He said it was what made this day one of the best. I just filled with so much happiness because i love him as a friend and there is nothing that makes me smile more than him being happy.. and if it happens me and her become friends throuhg it.. its cool.

I feel like my luck will change this year. My life is going ot be so much happier now that I am looking at things in the way I am. Contact with those i didnt think id hear from again, is happening... friends i didnt think would be made, are being made.. and you know waht.. im simply a happier person. Thanks to that little ticking of the clock to strike midnight on December 31, 2008.